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Pre-emptive apologies 2 by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Pre-emptive apologies 2

Sometimes Sometimes I can't help but wonder wonder wonder Wonder about you, how you're doing. it's been too long, anamchara too long since I've heard your voice or seen your face or read your words I hope that things are going better for you now; that your demons are being put behind you. I wonder; are you still dating that boy? I hope he's treating you well. I hope you're treating yourself well. I wonder; do you still wear my bracelet? do you look down, every day, and see my names circling your wrist, the letters and hearts a reminder of me, of this summer, of that strange, powerful connection that led to my fallingmadlyouto

Hidden beneath the surface by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Hidden beneath the surface

"It's the way the building rise up and cut into the skyline, creating a silhouette of greys and browns and bricks and stone. There's something beautiful about it, don't you think?" Jase's elbows were propped on the balcony rail as he leaned his torso over the edge, far too far over for Skye's liking. "Sorry man, I just don't see it. They're just buildings. What's so beautiful about them, anyway?" Jase laughed quietly, tearing his eyes away from the skyline, darting them over toward his friend as a small smile curved his lips. "I guess I just find beauty in unconventional things. "I guess I just love things hardest when their beauty needs t

Romanticism dresses in Drag by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Romanticism dresses in Drag

iii. she's the one that you hold out for knowing that it will never be easy but it sure as hell will be fun and god is she ever worth it the one that you would roll out of bed for at 7 am on a Sunday morning if she wanted to go to church and pray (never mind you aren't Catholic) she tells you to get dressed nice, you're going out and takes you in your nicest clothes to the zoo to watch the penguins and then buys you ice cream and calls you handsome and you feel the romantic in you seeping back and you feel yourself cringe when you notice and you don't like feeling this naive and silly and you can't imagine that this will end

The Binding and the Binder by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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The Binding and the Binder

x. and what they don't seem to understand is that there's nothing wrong with you showing them who you are (never said there was!) and that it really doesn't matter if they get it or not that's not your goal no no not at all they don't need to get you at all you're not looking for their twisted approval being static was never your aim the world is so much more fun when you play the dynamic role you say that they can call you whatever they want as long as they never try to call you "theirs" because you're not and you won't be no, you don't mean to be cruel yes yes, you know how little sense you make to them and no, you don

Taunting Whiteness by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Taunting Whiteness

The empty page and blinking black vertical line taunt me as I stare at the blinding white. my mind filled with images of words and phrases and things that I wish to record and things that I wish to tell you and all the things that I don't know how to say there have been certain things pressing down on me on us on you things that I think you may be starting to guess at Maybe? things that I cannot find the strength to say, not even to type, not to you, not now, Never? will I ever? I hope that you will continue to wait for me to, to make up my mind to wait for me to, to find my words to, to tell you Exactly &#

Pre-emptive apologies, by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Pre-emptive apologies,

i. She says that she feels entitled as she takes a drag, loving the poison rushing her system, her mind becomes addled. She says that she was in a bit of a state couldn't make wrong from right and she's sorry that she's running late. "Pre-emptive apologies, apologies" she slurs, face a-grin as she takes a swig from the bottle "Life is a little sweeter when my vision blurs". She talks of distilling hopefulness and and sprinkling it around the city streets, her love of music and how she wished to join a band. She says she says that she just needs a little day drunk to survive this town when all the illusions have dropped back a

Seeing an Escape by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Seeing an Escape

"Do you know that feeling you get? When your breath comes fast and shallow? And you can't fall asleep? When you stare at the ceiling for hours not really seeing anything not really thinking anything, anything at all? Except for how you want to run Just runrunrunasfastasyoucan And just keep running until your legs and your lungs and your body give out and you just c o l l a p s e . Run until you can't take it anymore and you're far away from this place and you can't see anything but the open skies and no specific path? You know what I mean? You ever feel

Like They're so Funny by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Like They're so Funny

Clearing the table, tip lying there. "Can I get you anything else?" The girl shakes her head no, eyeing the server's bracelet. When the server returns, the tip is gone. "We got another complaint today" She bites the inside of her cheek, nods, eyes locked on the stacks of paper piled on the boss' desk "The customers say that they don't want no fag serving them their coffee." He waits for her to speak. She doesn't. "This can't keep happening. You need to take off that damned bracelet while at work" She eyes her slender wrist, fingering the woven strings of red, orange, yellow. Green, blue, purple. Eyeing her Pride and debating ju

The fact is... by SpiltIntegrity, literature

Surmounting Expectations by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Pre-emptive apologies 2 by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Pre-emptive apologies 2

Hidden beneath the surface by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Hidden beneath the surface

Romanticism dresses in Drag by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Romanticism dresses in Drag

The Binding and the Binder by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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The Binding and the Binder

Taunting Whiteness by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Taunting Whiteness

Pre-emptive apologies, by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Pre-emptive apologies,

Seeing an Escape by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Seeing an Escape

Like They're so Funny by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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Like They're so Funny

The fact is... by SpiltIntegrity, literature

Surmounting Expectations by SpiltIntegrity, literature

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three weeks 'til a new year by Satah, literature

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three weeks 'til a new year

you root your hand to my spine to keep yourself balanced, rhapsodising melodically to the crunching bass of a home-grown techno track recorded by some kid with garageband and a synthesizer while i'm bent over to do my last line and as i stand up you slide your fingers up my back, pushing your palms into the muscles tensing up in my shoulders the clock reads 11:59 and you kiss me so that we can dive into tomorrow with our lungs connected

ldrs by Satah, literature

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ldrs

we tape up a map of the world and she takes off the backings of her grandmother's earrings, stabbing the diamonds into the wall like push-pins to mark where we are and where he is saying, "can you believe the hours it takes to drive what our fingers so quickly trace" i run my hands over every inch of paper, pressing my calluses against the folds and creases, dragging my palms across oceans and drumming my nails on continents but even with papercuts on every knuckle and glove compartment dust worked deeply into my lifeline, i don't know where you are

all of my relationships are just metaphors... by Satah, literature

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all of my relationships are just metaphors...

pretty girls with elfin features are reading me tender text messages from their boyfriends while i stand half-naked by their bedsides and i allow myself a single moment of romance-- leaning against the bathroom door, breathing in the post-shower smells her shampoo and her bodywash and the warm scent of humidity on wallpaper the previous tenants installed because none of it's about her; this poem isn't even about her not really

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Nov 10
Canada
Deviant for 15 years

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CJ;

An eccentric, enigmatic boyish girl or girlish boy.
A sarcastic, trusting douche bag who loves to dance.
I am a health-nut, vegetarian, hair stylist, language-fanatic.
I enjoy gender bending, guitar, working out, art of all sorts.
You may call me CJ, C, Caro, or most anything else that you want.

Facebook. www.facebook.com/profile.php?r…?
Formspring. www.formspring.me/Carroo?
Tumblr. jasearo.tumblr.com/

Current Residence: Toronto
Favourite cartoon character: Link
Personal Quote: "We were born naked, and the rest is drag" -RuPaul

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Veganism, writing, guitar, photography, hair dressing, theatre

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Jul 6, 2010

Pride!

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Toronto Pride was wonderful. Photos on my Facebook, if interested [in three different albums, as I took A LOT of pictures!] Musical recommendations! Hunter Valentine. The bassist, Adrienne, is gorgeous. Hell, they all are. And Kiyomi writes great lyrics [I adore "Jimmy Dean"] The Cliks have a gorgeous, gorgeous lead singer named Lucas who I have a huge crush on, I admit :P He has such a sweet voice! Also, the bassist is gorgeous, and has insanely long hair. Dragonette. This band is just a lot of fun. They're pretty much awesome.

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SpiltIntegrity

May 21, 2010

Devious Journal Entry

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More places need to start hiring, I've been looking for weeks and no call backs yet. Anyone in the area know places that are looking? Take a look at these awesome deviants! http://pepsi-tan.deviantart.com/art/Musician-II-164663984?q=favby:SpiltIntegrity/9465855&qo=2   http://gutterface.deviantart.com/art/w-a-r-and-p-e-a-c-e-158776654?q=favby:SpiltIntegrity/9465855&qo=16    http://udiya5.deviantart.com/art/Reality-158833168?q=favby:SpiltIntegrity/9465855&qo=31    http://zealous-artista.deviantart.com/art/Spinning-Like-A-Champ-159110709?q=favby:SpiltIntegrity/9465855&qo=32 http://maenaren.deviantart.com/art/Medusa-158973605?q=favby:SpiltInte

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Apr 8, 2010

The Summer

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I'm only going to be in Toronto for another three days. THREE. Then I'm gone for four months. That's a sad thought, I really don't want to leave here haha. But my roommates and I haven't found an apartment, apparently we aren't looking until later on during the summer? NO idea what's going on there, it's kind of stressing me out to be honest. Gotta love university, too. My first final exam here? It's on Saturday; at seven at night. It's a three hour exam. Really? Who schedules exams for 7-10 pm SATURDAY NIGHT? That's just ridiculous haha. I sent out a couple resumes in Kingston to places that I really want to work at and they are related t